The Ashes

The ashes cinder to the ground

Only a lifeless body,

No emotion, no love, only selfless ignorance awaits

As if something was missing from this swollen reality

A dream within a dream that only one could understand

The sinful flesh left glowing in anguish

The smell of desire and hate fill the air

As the moments turn to reality

A shaking appears as if the ground is tumbling below

But the world does not follow

Time freezes, and I stand alone among a crowded room

I can touch, but it rebounds

Is my imagination faltering, or is this how regret feels?

The mind reverses to this moment time after time again

But its as though I scream to my motioned body through a vacuum

An unending spiral, I reach out to touch,

But it dissolves away, unfolds

And I wake

Back to where I was

Back to anger and relentless mercy

Back to the merry-go-round of my own decisions

To the person who I betrayed

And I fall to the ground, hands wide

I round up the ashes and try to piece together the fallen sands of time,

But the tears fall and ashes turn to mud

The liquid washes away

Lost in time, to be forever gone